June 20, 2017
On a rainy day in early December, Scott and I walked down the labor and delivery floor hall, passing oversized photos of smiling babies on the walls. Our hearts and our overnight hospital bag weighed heavy. Our baby’s 13-week heartbeat was gone and we had come to be induced and deliver him.
Dani stood waiting for us at the end of the hallway. When we approached, I began crying. She hugged me with such tenderness, more like a treasured friend than a patient.
Today, almost seven months later, Dani (below, holding bear) again stood waiting for me at the end of the hallway. This time, I hefted a cardboard box filled with gifts. Scott carried two boxes behind me, with kids in tow. And just like before, tears filled my eyes when I neared Dani, and spilled over when we hugged.
Joy and sorrow mixed, as our family presented the first of 36 weighted Comfort Cubs and “Quietly” instrumental CDs to Dani’s nursing team (some pictured below) to give to other bereaved mamas and their families who lose a baby, whether a few ounces or 10 pounds.
I was given one of these bears the day Scott and I met our tiny Gabriel, then held and said goodbye to him. The weight of it caught me off guard as it felt more like a baby than mere a stuffed animal. I sobbed.
The letter, written by a mom who’d lost a full-term baby, ministered incredibly to my heart. She wrote about the weight of that moment and of the significance of my child. As I read about her hope in Jesus I almost immediately pictured a different scene—a mom who wasn’t yet a believer in Jesus, holding a bear and the letter. I knew God was stirring something.
My due date was to have been May 22nd, so Scott and I decided a way we’d honor the life God gave us in Gabriel would be to raise money to buy 24 bears and CDs (the CD is one that brought me great comfort these last months).
We were stunned when God doubled that, moving 52 individuals and families to give enough to purchase 48 bears and CDs—enough that we’re giving 36 to my beloved Florida Hospital and 12 to St. Elizabeth’s in Lincoln, my hometown hospital.
Last night I stayed up late fluffing each bear and tying around its neck my letter of comfort and the hope of Jesus. As I did, I asked God for insight in how to pray for the mom who would hold that specific bear. Oh, the things that came to mind and the subsequent tears.
We’d love for you to pray with us for the 48 moms and their families who will have had to say excruciating goodbyes to their baby(ies) the day they receive these bears.
And pray with us amidst the incredible loss and ache that many, many would place their trust in Jesus as a result of His work of comfort in their life? (P.S. If you’d like to know more about the cubs, the CDs or talk more, please comment below and we’ll connect.)
I love this. You and your family are doing such great things and it is truly inspiring, even though I am sure neither of you ever wanted to have experienced this. I wanted to connect to see if you are going to be in Colorado for staff training this summer? I’d love to connect in person with you if you are,
On Wed, Jul 5, 2017 at 9:33 PM, ScottandAngie.org wrote:
> angiebentley posted: “June 20, 2017 On a rainy day in early December, > Scott and I walked down the labor and delivery floor hall, passing > oversized photos of smiling babies on the walls. Our hearts and our > overnight hospital bag weighed heavy. Our baby’s 13-week heartbeat was g” >
This is beautiful. It’s crazy to think that all we do at our center is provide a pamphlet from Family Focus and a signed card from the staff when a client miscarries. It happens more often than I could have ever imagined! Even though I’m no longer at the center… I would love to get more info on the bear and letter. I think it would be such a special moment for our clients to hear about Jesus and share in His abundant comfort. That is my hope and pray for your next 48. May Jesus be presented in your letter and bear.
Love you guys!!
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This moves me so much! I love you.